sleep in heavenly peace? i wish.

merry christmas.

Jackson is now 15 weeks old. We continue to struggle with reflux. We’ve fixed the constipation issue (thank you God!). And we are “eh” in the sleep department. Okay, we suck in the sleep department.

We tried putting him in his crib. And for that one night I stuck to it. And did not hardly sleep at all… between my anxiety about him being in a different room, and me actually having to get out of bed to nurse him, and him being in the running for the world’s most light and fitful sleeper… well it was a bust, and he’s back to the co-sleeper in our room. Mommy and daddy flunk.

Still, his sleep has been horrible. He seems to have colic pains in the evening that we have to bounce out until he’s exhuasted and passes out in our arms. And if we’re lucky he doesn’t immediately wake up when we lay him down. For a couple nights last week he WOULD NOT SLEEP. Jesse and I were at our exhausted wits end, and one of Jesse’s co-workers suggested chiropractic, saying it worked for his girls’ sleep issues. So, Jackson went to the chiropractor. Twice. He’s sleeping slightly better since – at least one 4 hour chunk, then usually 1-2 hour segments and finshing the night inclined in the bouncer with me sleeping next to him on the couch. And most nights I feed-him-to-sleep. Let’s just say he has a big potential to be an obese little man with all of the feeding-to-sleep going on around here. On the bad nights, I feed him side-laying, and let him sleep snuggled in my arms. Bad, bad habbits. Bad, bad mommy. He HATES being swaddled, despite my multiple attempts for him to like it. (And now he’s a little too old to be swaddled anyway). But he LOVES sleeping in peoples’ arms. Bad. Oh so bad.

I thank God we have a healthy little boy… because, truly, he’s fine. He just is not a sleeper right now. Someday he’ll sleep. I keep telling myself that. It is the only thing sustaining me.

And really, babies, especially breastfed babies, aren’t really meant to sleep through the night at 3-4 months old. However, if he DID sleep through the night I would consider it a Christmas miracle.

look… he slept for 10 minutes… just long enough to snap this picture.